Reblogged from voidn0ise
Lainey Doll
Twinkling skylights, the summer breeze, green tea, and the best of friends... its all yah need.ahhh FUCK BITCHES AND HOES!
your fucking shaddow follows me everywhere I go
I can’t get away from this haunt
I don’t understand why I’m stuck in this situation
I wasn’t born for this world
your fucking shaddow follows me everywhere I go
I wish there were a way out
I don’t understand why you could never love me
I wasn’t born for this world
your fucking shaddow follows me everywhere I go
No matter how hard I try I am just fucked.
I quit
This is me being a bitch now. You do deserve all the unfourtunte events that have happened to you I am very happy to hear your’re having a kid because when that kid grows up hes going to tell you how horrible of a person you are. I do not care if your sister reads this eaither she wouldnt try to talk to me anyways. I should have listened to her when she said not to date you. I wish I was such a heartless bitch I could say this to your face but I have a heart and can only be a total bitch on the internet. Lose my contact fuck off. As for Lorrie I wish her luck with your child cause if its anything like you it’ll need face reconstruction and will cost a lot of money you wont be making at you job? oh wait you dont have one :\ feels great to finally say what I’ve been wanting. Yes this does make me feel better. I don’t care if its immature or mature you texted me on my ipod and I had to express how disgusting you are some how :\ Freedom of speech bitches!
I could use a hug
I have learned more then I ever have. I learned how alone I really was, how hardworking, how strong, I’ve learned maturity, I have gained responcibility. I know how hard it is to get what I want and I have learned the wrong and the right ways. I have finally found the way I want to live and I choose to be happy. Anyone who stands in my way can turn around and walk out the door. This IS MY Life not yours. I will control where I am how I made it there. I am 100% on this I am very independent. I have been this way for quite some time. I have been planning for this change and i have been waiting for it to happen. Its now my turn to Do what i want the way i want and how i want it. I will not let ANYONE control my life, I have had way too much of that and I do NOT agree with those ways. I agree with Happiness and trial and error. I’m not changing who I am just who is in control. This is my independence note this is me telling you how much I have learned to be able to do this. You must go down before you can get back up. Sky high here I come.
All my college “friends” turned on me. I have no one at all in this town. I miss stephen so bad it hurts. the time is 7:19 pm last time i left my bed was 2 pm last time I turned the lights on was yesterday. Last text. fuck texting. I like that I said something about being super lonely in the first phone call i get all day and they hang up on me.. I love the fact i have to stay up here all weekend because I have a concert… I want to go home so bad. its not fair that I have to sit through this. Last time I ate with someone was sunday… I hate eating alone. last time I felt complete was sunday with stephen. I slept all day i am about to just take sleeping pills so I dont have to go through this shit… I am way to depressed to be alone… I want to quit college I cant learn if I am not comfortable and right now I am farthest from it then I have ever been. I can’t smoke a cigarette because I told stephen I would stop and I dont break promises. I woke up took a final went to choir slept woke up did my hair hoping stephen would skype me.. no just more waiting… I can’t win for losing. I wouldnt want to post this online but its kind of a rant and a plea for someone to acknowledge that I am still alive. My so called friends from highschool dont talk to me anymore the only one I would still consider a friend is Kyle. its to the point that no one cares and i just want someone anyone that would be great…. How many times have I cried today way too many.. I have finals again tomorrow can I focus? no i want to go home. first time I put on make up in a month and i am crying it off. Forgot to mention I love being ignored… Hold me? Any one?
